16. Nobody's Perfect - Part One

Upon entering their room again he paused feeling how still the air was. The outline of her figure was emphasised by the early morning sunlight peeking through the curtains. He honestly had no idea how he was going to approach this situation, he just hoped that having Auburn out of her care for a couple hours would do her the world of good. Thinking about where he could start off he heard his Mother's words echoing in his mind. Maybe moving back to Canada wasn't such a bad idea? As he contemplated each answer for that internal question he sat down steadily on his side of the bed, it was still made up since he slept on the couch in fear of waking her.

"Where's Auburn?" The crackly whisper snatched him instantly from his thoughts as he stared at the back of her head.

"My Mom's takin' care of her. She's fine though."

"Oh."

"Listen, Nicki we need to talk. Could you please turn over?" Slowly doing as he asked she rolled on to her right side and looked up at him. Sandi was right, she looked exhausted. Noticing her fatigued body he changed the way he was addressing the situation and lay down face to face with her.

"You didn't come to bed last night."

"Sorry, I got back late and I didn't wanna wake you."

"It's fine." She whispered and let her eyes rest on his succulent lips as she half shrugged.

"Mom said you got a lil' upset last night? Wanna tell me what happened?"

"I wasn't upset I was havin' a meltdown or something. I couldn't stop Aubbie from crying and then I couldn't stop crying and I just...I needed a break, Aubrey." Her eyes lowered along with her voice.

"You're not havin' a meltdown. You're tired, stressed and overwhelmed and it's okay to feel like that." He smiled and pulled her chin up to look at him. "You're sixteen, still in school and you just had a baby. Nobody's expectin' you to just bounce back in a couple weeks, that'd be inhuman."

"But I'm expectin' that though."

"What do you mean?" He wrinkled his brow and studied her expression closely.

"I'm expectin' myself to spring back to normal. I need to."

"Well, you need to lose that mindset because it's gonna get you down."

"Yeah well, it's too late for that."

"What?"

"I already feel like I couldn't get any worse."

"You feel down?"

"Beyond down." She sniffled. "Like, so far down nobody can help me." He inched forwards some more once he became aware of the tears threatening to fall from her bottom lids. "I can't do this, Aubrey."

"Stop it." He gripped her hands softly as he spoke. "You need to see how far you've come, how far Auburn's come and really take notice of that. That was you."

"How can I do that when all I see in Auburn is him?" She paused before continuing. "I'm a mess. Like you said, I'm a sixteen year old school girl with a baby I didn't even want." The silence following her speech made his heart sink.

"You don't mean that."

"Yes I do, Drake. She was given to me in the most barbaric way and I never wanted her. I never loved her." His mouth dropped as he moved away from her teary face. "But when I held her for the first time it was like she became the most important thing in my life." Her lip quivered as she continued to talk, it was clear she was fighting her emotions but she was losing the battle miserably. "And to know that I can't even take care of her properly is killing me."

"You can take care of her, Nicki. You just need time to adjust. Stop beatin' yourself up." He moved back in again and pulled her to him. "Auburn needs you, whether you feel like she does or not, she'll always need you."

They stayed in the same position for a couple of hours as Nicki slept off her emotional outburst. He was glad he'd booked her a post-natal check-up appointment for the afternoon, a specialist might be able to assess her more expertly than himself. Suddenly going back on to the topic of hospitals he remembered he had a huge decision to make. The dinner was fast approaching and he still didn't know whether to take his chance for promotion or whisk his young family back to Canada. He knew that if he stayed people were bound to find out about Nicki, it was inevitable but clinical lead of the cardio-thoracic ward? That would be the making of him as a doctor. A small knock at the door interrupted his thoughts as he let his Mom know she could enter.

"I'm sorry, I know I said I'd have her for a couple of hours but she's not taking the bottle. I've been trying for the last hour, she's just not having it." She looked on at them apologetically, she felt bad that she was disturbing them especially since Nicki was sleeping soundly in his arms.

"It's okay, don't worry about it." His reassuring smile made her relax a little before he nodded towards Auburn's moses basket. "Just lay her down and I'll wake Nic up in a bit."

"Here." She set the bottle on the night stand once she'd put Auburn in her bassinet. "I'll let you give it a try before you go waking her up." Smiling sweetly at him she moved back over to the door frame. "I'll be downstairs if you need anything."

"Thanks." He nodded in her direction and eased himself away from Nicki. Luckily she didn't stir from his movements. Auburn was looking healthier and healthier by the day but it seemed the reverse was happening with Nicki. She looked to be getting thinner and more run-down, which was understandable considering the circumstances but he was still worried. Pushing those thoughts to the back of his nearly overflowing mind he leant down and secured Aubbie in his arms. She was still so tiny but she was growing closer to five weeks now, the time had flown by. As he sat back on to the bed he grabbed the bottle with his free hand and popped the lid off quietly, praying that she'd accept and to his surprise she did.

***

"Everythin'll be fine, stop worrying." He squeezed her hand comfortingly as they sat in the waiting area. "I can't go in with you but I'll be right outside waiting, okay?"

She inhaled shakily and nodded as she spoke. "Yeah, I'll be fine."

"That's my girl." Kissing her temple sweetly he looked over her. "And then when you're done, I'm takin' you out. I have some things I need to talk to you about."

With a furrowed brow she faced him slowly. "What things?"

He didn't get chance to answer before a stocky, middle-aged woman stepped out from Dr Santoy's room calling Nicki's name. As soon as her government was yelled out Drake saw the colour drain from her fatigued face.

"Go, you'll be fine and I'll be right out here." He gave her an encouraging smile as she stood up, the nerves affecting her ability to speak and walk confidently. She had no idea why she was so afraid.

"You must be Onika?" A tall Indian looking man moved out from behind his desk once the stocky nurse had led her into the room.

"Yeah, you can call me Nicki though."

"Alright, Nicki it is." He flashed another smile and slid his glasses on before guiding her to the examination bed. "Just hop up here, Nicki. I have some paperwork to pull out first and then we'll move on to the examination, okay?"

"Sure." Her shy stance and one word answers alerted him to her fear, he would try and make he feel as comfortable as possible. Returning less than five minutes later he sat some papers on his desk and sanitised his hands before gloving up.

"First I'm just going to run through a few questions, see how things are with you and then we'll move on the physical examination." That same smile graced his face again, relaxing her only a little. She wished Drake could be in here with her. "So, you gave birth to your baby just over a month ago?"

"Yeah, Auburn." She gave him a half smile before continuing. "She's five weeks old."

"That's a nice name. How are you finding things?"

She smiled at the reference to Aubbie having a nice name. "It's been tough, yeah." She sighed sadly. "But I'm getting used to it, slowly."

"Just like any new mother. The first few weeks are very testing, Nicki."

"I thought it was just me." She looked down shyly, half relieved at what she was hearing.

"Of course not." He gave her arm a reassuring rub. " It's difficult for any new parent. Especially if there's no support being offered. How are you finding things support wise?"

"Perfect really. I couldn't have asked for anymore help and support than I've already been given."

"Well, that's great to hear." He stood up. "There's nothing else you'd like to bring up? Concerning you and Auburn?" She shook her head no. If there was anything she'd just ask Drake. "Okay, well let's get started then. I'll let you change into the gown and I'll return in a couple of minutes, just lay down on the bed once you're completely unclothed under the the gown."

She just smiled and nodded as he handed her the blue fabric. "Thank you."

The knot in her stomach felt like it doubled in size when he re-entered the room, she felt so vulnerable just laying naked under only a thin sheet of clothing.

"You ready?"

"Mhm."

"Right, first I'm just gonna have a feel of your abdomen, check everything is okay there." He started pressing on her stomach before he'd even finished his sentence. She wanted to avoid his gaze but she needed to watch his expression to tell if everything was alright. "That all feels perfectly fine to me, you're not feeling any tenderness?"

"No, none at all."

"Good." Smiling down at her he took a step back. "Could you just sit up for me and swing your legs over the side of the bed?"

"Sure."

"That's great, I'm just going to pull the gown off of your shoulders for a minute so I can examine your breasts." He removed it before she even had chance to realise what he'd said and honestly she felt even worse than before, something which was extremely obvious to him. "It's alright, Nicki. There's no need to be nervous. It'll be over in a couple seconds, I promise." He tried to make her feel less exposed but that didn't change the fact that she was sat topless in front of this stranger. She winced a little when he pressed firmly on her. "That sore?"

"Just a little, is that normal?"

"Every woman is different but yes, it's completely normal." He smiled and moved on to her other breast. "You're formula feeding?"

"No, sir. They said because she was so early it'd be better for me to feed her myself." The look on his face made her worry. "Why? Should I be usin' formula?"

"No, no of course not. However you choose to feed your baby is completely up to you, Nicki. It's just quite unusual to have a teenaged Mother breast-feeding, they usually opt for formula." He took his hand away and let her pull the gown back up, which she didn't hesitate to do.

"Oh."

"Could you just hold your arm out for me?" She started to do as he asked but retracted her arm from him quickly.

"Wait, you're not giving me a shot are you?"

"No." He laughed at her question. "Not yet anyway, I'm checking your blood pressure. Then we'll do a blood test which, unfortunately will require a needle and then a urine test and to finish up with I'm going to examine you a little more internally, sound okay?" He figured he'd get it all out in the open in hopes that she'd relax some more but the final part of her examination was worrying her the most.

Back out in the waiting room Drake was heavily contemplating these decisions he had to make. Maybe if he just let Nicki know about it all then he could ask her what she wanted to do too? That seemed to be the best idea he'd had all day. He couldn't let his mind elaborate any further before he saw Nicki walking out of the office towards him.

"How'd it go?"

"Yeah, it was fine. I just gotta go pick up these prescriptions." She stared down at the piece of paper in her hand before looking back up at him as the headed back to the car.

"Prescriptions? For what?" He tried to look at the paper in her hand but she read them out.

"Vitamin D tablets and uhm," She stalled momentarily. "Nipple cream." She pouted whilst folding the paper over and put in her purse.

"You're vitamin D deficient?"

"Yeah, he said that's maybe why I been feelin' a lil' down and tired all the time." She glanced at him over the hood of his car before they both climbed in and picked up conversation again.

"Wait, he?"

"Mhm." She buckled in as he started the engine. "Dr Santoy's a dude."

"I asked for a female physician. I don't believe this! One thing, that's all I asked and they can't even get that right." He angrily  reversed out of the parking space and moved on to the road.

"It's fine, Drake. Why you gettin' so worked up for?"

"It's not fine, Nicki. I directly asked for another female to examine you and they went against my wishes."

"Dr Santoy was nice, he did the job and everythin's fine." she couldn't understand why he was acting so aggressively about the situation.

"I'm sorry, you're right." He ran one hand over his mouth and breathed out. "After everything you've been through I just....I didn't want you to feel uncomfortable, that's all." He didn't take his eyes of the road but stole a glimpse at her when he felt a small hand wrap around his on the steering wheel.

"I was fine, Aubrey. But thank you."She grinned small at his cute and caring behaviour. Believe it or not she was still trying to get used to people treating her so kindly.

"Good, you still up for eatin' out?"

"Yes! I'm starving."

***

As he'd predicted he lost his nerve during their late lunch out. Just seeing her happy again after a few days of misery put him off greatly. He didn't want to ruin her happiness. They'd already picked up her prescriptions and were finally home. Nicki was pining for Auburn after only a day away from her and was more than ecstatic to be holding her again.

"So she was good?"

"She's been an angel all day." Sandi smiled warmly, not just at the sight before her but the fact that Nicki seemed to have cheered up considerably since the night before. She hoped she'd never have to see her like that again.

"You wanna feed her while I go shower, Aubrey?"

"Sure. There's bottles made up in the refrigerator already, right?"

"Should be." She frowned a little as she stood up from the couch. "If not, there'll be some in the freezer." Handing the tiny bundle over to him she admired the both of them before stepping back. "I won't be long."

"Take your time, there's no rush." He kissed her sweetly after she'd kissed Auburn's little head before she left them to it. As soon as she was out of their view the smile diminished and her thoughts began to consume her once again. Even undressing and actually climbing into the shower was a blur. Standing motionlessly under the downfall of shower water she stared off into space, thinking about the conversation she and Dr Santoy had before she left the doctor's office that afternoon.

"Do you have any other questions you might want to ask before you leave? If you do, now's the time to ask." He returned to his desk and sat down as she adjusted her top. He'd once again left the room for her to change and now they were nearing the end of the appointment.

"Actually, there was one thing I was wondering about." Twiddling nervously with the button on her top she took a seat in front of him.

"Okay, go ahead and I'll see if I can help." He leant on the table, waiting for her to speak.

"Well it's actually about something you mentioned earlier, regarding...Intimacy."

"Mkay." After removing his glasses he studied the surface of his desk for a second. "What about it?"

"I just wanted to know when it's okay to y'know? Start having sex again."

There was a short silence before he answered. "Look, Nicki I honestly don't think sexual intercourse is anything you should be worrying about, especially not now. You just gave birth and you're sixteen, technically you shouldn't even be considering it let alone have already done it."

"I know." She glanced down at her fidgety hands, not wanting to say that she was heartlessly robbed of her innocence.

"Are you feeling pressured by anyone? Maybe a boyfriend?"

"No not at all, I just wanted to know." Her quick response was in Drake's defence. She knew he'd never pressure her but she was pressuring herself.

"Well, I guess I should answer your question but I definitely do not recommend you take my answer as a guideline." He looked at her sternly, making her shift a little. "Usually anywhere from four to six weeks sexual activity can be resumed as normal." 

She nodded slowly. "Thank you Doctor."

"Any time. Is there anything else I can help you with?"

"No, that's it thanks." She stood up and let him show her to the door before heading back to Drake in the waiting area.


"Nic?" He knocked again before turning the bathroom handle. "Nicki?"

"Yeah?"

"I been shoutin' you for ages. You okay?" He called back and leant on the sink, listening to the water falling over her body. The loud sound soon died down as she turned it off.

"I'm fine, could you hand me my towel?"

"Sure." Leaning over to to the rack he pulled the pink towel from its holder as he heard her rinsing the last of the water from her hair. "Here."

"Oh, thanks." She smiled and stepped into it whilst he held it open for her. "Is my lotion out there?"

"Yeah, and your cream too." He answered her before following her back into their bedroom.

"Do you mind?"

"Uh, yeah of course." He chuckled shyly. "I'll see you downstairs when you're done." He went to leave but stopped when he heard her laugh a little. "What's funny?"

"You! I meant do you mind lotioning me up?"

"Oh." His eyes bugged dramatically before he came back to the moment. "Sure, if that's what you want?"

"I wouldn't have asked if I didn't want you to do it." She locked eyes with him, giving him a seductive look that only attracted him to her even more. "You don't mind, do you?" She let her towel slip down as she turned around and grabbed her lotion, handing it to him over her shoulder.

"Not one bit." He let her lay down on the bed once her towel had fallen to the ground. He couldn't stop staring at her. She looked so perfect laying on front completely naked. Smiling to himself he swept her wet hair from her neck and shoulders before starting to rub the cream into her soft, glowing skin. He decided to keep things mild, staying mainly on her arms and upper back but her next request foiled that plan.

"You need to lotion all over, Drake. 'Specially my legs." Her eyes remained closed, allowing herself to enjoy him touching her the way he was. To say she was scared was a vast understatement but for fear of losing him she was prepared to do this. She just hoped he would catch on to her not so subtle hints. He continued on her shoulders, forcing her to believe he would go no further but before she managed to sit up she felt his hands graze her lower back, pushing on her delicately but firmly at the same time. Applying the lotion evenly.

"That better? Miss Demanding."

"Mmm, that feels good."

He faltered briefly as other parts of his body, not just his ears, reacted to the moan she just emitted. He gravitated lower and lower, doing exactly as she'd asked until he reached her feet. Her ass wouldn't leave his mind.

"Could you do my front too?" She flipped over without warning presenting his eyes with what he could only describe as perfection. He decided not to question her and once again filled his palms with the sweet smelling cream. Their eyes were glued to one another's as she moved back to be in the middle of the bed. Just out of habit he followed her movement and found himself resting over the top of her, his legs positioned on either side of her body.

"Pull you hair back." She complied slowly, moving it away from her face a neck as he started massaging the substance into her skin at the top of her chest. Her nerves were really chewing at her but she wasn't showing that at all. She wanted him to feel that she was ready, and it was working. The gasp that left her lips shocked even herself once she felt his hands on her breasts. The way he was caressing at her was starting to feel relaxing. It was having the opposite effect on him, however. With each stilted breath she let out he could feel himself becoming more and more aroused. He believed she thought this was an innocent gesture and so getting "excited" would be inappropriate. That belief was squandered when he felt her foot rubbing at his erection through his trousers. By this time his hands were at the top of her legs, dangerously close to her centre. Licking her lips seductively slowly she felt his hand make contact with the flesh between her legs as he moved his face down to hers, initiating a kiss. They were both completely lost in the moment.

...

*Okay this chapter might be super longish and confusing I'm sorry. I really struggled to get back into it :( Like, a lot!! But pleeeaaase if you're confused about anything just ask me in your comment and keep checking back to see if I've replied to you ^_^ Thanks SOOO much for all the previous comments :) And I really hope this was alright for you all. Also since I'm back at uni now, I'll so kindly ask for ten comments before I post again, thanku! ^_^*

15. Close

*I can't tell you how many times I've almost given up on these fics, I really do enjoy writing them but I really doubt myself A LOT and nothing will ever change that. Especially when I'm reading other peoples stories, I don't wanna sound like a jealous person but I do feel envious of their writing abilities! And then when it comes to writing mine I just wanna throw my laptop at the wall out of frustration at myself for not being good enough but I just wanna thank those of you who do read even if you don't comment, it means a lot so thanku very much!*

"Nicki, she'll be fine I promise." He wrapped his arms around her waist and kissed the side of her head as they peered down into Auburn's bassinet.

"I know but I don't wanna be away from her." She whined whilst pouting. It was true though. Apart from when Auburn was sleeping during the night, Nicki would constantly have her held close. She felt more at ease knowing she was right there with her in case anything happened.

"Well, if you really don't wanna go I can just cancel the reservations. I don't mind one bit, as long as I get to spend the night with you I'm good." He kept hold of her as she turned and looked up at him.

"But you planned all this for us."

"Yeah but I don't wanna force you to be away from Auburn. It's a natural thing for you to want to stay close to her."

"You really don't mind?"

"Of course not." He kissed her lovingly. "I'll go cancel it now." He started heading out of their dimly lit room before she stopped him.

"Aubrey?"

"Yeah?"

"Thank you." Their smiles mirrored each others before he disappeared. Never did she imagine her life taking this kind of turn. Not too long ago she was leaving the house at ridiculous hours just to stay away from her Father and his psychotic friends and now she was living happily with the people who meant the world to her.

Drake was true to his word, he cancelled the reservations and cooked for her instead. Honestly she preferred the atmosphere a lot more than a busy restaurant but she still felt bad that Drake's plans hand been squandered by her maternal instinct.

"Stop apologisin', I don't care about that stuff." He held her tightly to him with one arm and kissed her temple as they watched an old movie on TV.

"Me either, I just felt bad that I ruined your plans."

"Well don't feel like that, it's fine honestly."

"Mmm, good." Snuggling up to him some more she remained silent before speaking again. "Aubrey?"

"Yeah?"

"Did you mean it when you said you believed I could make it in the field of psychology?" Her random question made him look down at her, he stared for a second or two before she made eye contact with him.

"Of course I did. Why'd you ask?"

"I got my paper back a few days ago. I failed." She sighed miserably and sat up, running her hand through her hair. "I don't know if I can do this."

"Hey, look at me." His serious tone made her turn to stare at him. "You have been through so much these last few weeks, nobody can blame you for feelin' a little stressed or run-down but whatever happens you don't give up. I believe in you, I just wish you could believe in yourself a little more."

"I wish I could too."

"So what's gonna happen with this paper?" He pulled her to him and resumed their original position, he didn't really want to stay on the topic because he could see her trying not to cry.

"They said I can re-submit it and if I improve the highest I can be graded is no more than fifty percent."

"So it'll be a pass?"

"Well, yeah but a shitty one." She sniffled and pulled her feet up on to the couch.

"Hey as long as it's a pass there should be no complaining." His comment made her smile but that was soon replaced with a frown when they were both alerted by his pager bleeping in his pocket.

"What's happened?" She asked worriedly as he read the screen.

"Somethin's wrong with a patient of mine, they need me."

"Well go then, I don't mind."

"You sure?"

"It's your job Aubrey, if they need you then they need you. Go." She smiled and moved away to allow him to stand.

"I'll be back soon, promise. Love you." Hurriedly leaning down to kiss her he moved over to the coat rack and headed out to his car.

"Love you too." She sat in silence as she watched him reverse out of the garage, his lights illuminating the room before he hit the road and disappeared.

***

Making his way swiftly to the room he'd been told to go to he pushed the door open with speed. But what he was greeted with was not at all what he had anticipated.

"SURPRISE!!" His whole body jolted with shock as he stared around the room, stood before him were all his work friends and colleagues. Smiling wide awaiting his reaction.

"Oh my God." He chuckled nervously and rubbed his neck. "What is all this?"

"Ashley told us silly! I can't believe you never mentioned anything, daddy." The smile on his face melted away quickly.

"Excuse me?"

"Your girlfriend? She had a baby right? Why didn't you tell us you were gonna be a daddy?" Donna smiled, partly due to the fact that this pice of information somehow managed to get past her. The queen of gossip. Feeling everyone's eyes on him he blushed even more, frantically searching the room for Ashley's conniving face. There were pink balloons everywhere, indicating that they knew the baby was a girl.

"Oh, well I was actu-"

"Drake! You made it, I made sure everyone knew you might not be here. I didn't know if you'd be too busy with your little family." She entered the room with a motive and this was obvious to Drake as he tried to hold on to his last millimetre of patience.

"I need to talk to you. Now."

"What? Oh come on, we wanna see pictures of the little one!" The sly smirk on her face was new to him. Why had he never seen her like this before? His eyes moved away from her and on to his other friends as they nodded.

"Yeah, come on Drizzy! Hell we ain't even seen what the lucky lady looks like. You kept her quiet boy!"

"Look I 'preciate all you bein' here but I came thinkin' there was some huge emergency, I was in the middle of somethin' but thanks for the kind gesture." He looked down for a second. "I'll uh, I'll see you in a few weeks time when I return."

"You're really leavin'? We did all of this for you, please just stay for a few drinks?" Donna's sad face was killing him and taking in the surroundings he realised they'd put a lot of effort into the decor and food. Even if it was only a small gathering in the hospital staff room.

"Aight, half an hour but then I'm gone." Images of Nicki home alone kept flashing up in his mind but that was soon overtaken by anger when he caught Ashley looking over at him. As soon as everyone started talking amongst themselves he walked over to her, the fury evident in his gait.

"You like your little party?"

"The fuck are you playin' at Ashley?"

"What? I just thought that this moment in your life needed to be celebrated, don't you?" She sipped smugly on her drink.

"You're supposed to be my friend!" His hushed, temper-filled words were interrupted by Donna once again.

"You said we could see a picture?"

"What?" His brow wrinkled slightly before he caught on. "Oh right, yeah. Here." Pulling his wallet out he slid the picture from the protective screen and handed it to her. Thankfully he hadn't had chance to put one of Nicki in there yet. Hopefully she wouldn't be too upset that her baby was being looked upon by his workmates.

"Oh my Goodness." She breathed in awe. "She's so tiny." He couldn't help the familiar feeling of pride wash over him as he agreed with her.

"Yeah she was really early but she's doin' great now."

"Well, she's adorable. Must get that from her Mom, sorry boo but you ain't that cute." She laughed sweetly and handed the photo back to him. "Congratulations too. You're gonna be a great dad."

"Thanks Donna." He spoke whilst placing the image back in his wallet. As soon as Donna moved away he turned back to Ashley.

"See? Everyone's happy for you, why you so mad?"

"Because it wasn't your place to interfere like that! You're risking my job here, you understand how outta hand this is gettin'?"

"No Drake, you are risking your career, not me. I'm not the one sleeping with a fucking teenaged delinquent!" Her calm whisper soon escalated into an outburst of hushed insults.

"Teenaged delinquent? Are you forreal right now?" He shook his head irritably. "Nicki is the farthest thing from a delinquent, you have no fucking idea. I'm done with you, seriously stay outta my way and outta my life." He slammed his cup down and moved to the door without her even attempting to stop him but as he looked up to grab the handle he bumped into the last person he wanted to see.

***

"Shhh, come on baby please stop." Rocking her gently Nicki kept moving her eyes back to the clock, Drake had been gone for hours and Auburn was still screaming. She could feel herself starting to get worked up having to hear her baby cry like this. It was painful. Not to mention the fact that it was making her lactate and she'd only just fed her. The stains on her shirt slowly growing as Auburn continued to mewl.

"What's all this racket about?" Seeing Sandi's frame walk through the doorway was like seeing her guardian angel come to her rescue.

"I don't know." Her voice was only just audible over Aubbie's crying but Sandi definitely picked up on Nicki's upset tone.

"Oh Nicki sweetie, don't cry! Here, you want me to take her?" She wanted to say no because she knew that soon she'd be left alone to do this but at that moment everything was just getting on top of her.

"Please." Allowing the tears to run freely she handed an unconsolable Auburn over to Sandi.

"There we go. I'll take care of her, you just go get yourself cleaned up." The warm smile only made Nicki cry harder as she walked to her bathroom, pulling the stained fabric of her shirt away from herself. As soon as the door was closed she let her back make contact with the wood as she slid down to the floor. Peeling her shirt off she was left in only her soaked bra before standing feebly after a while of just sitting in tears. Running the tap in the sink she waited for it to run warm before holding a cloth under the steaming water and applying it to her chest to clean herself before showering.

***

"I can't believe how long you managed to keep all this quiet." Drake's boss chortled as he leant in the doorway. "You said you didn't have a lady in your life when we had that dinner meeting a few weeks back, my wife would have loved to have met her."

"Oh, yeah I ain't wanna pull her outta the house, she wasn't feelin' too great, y'know?"

"Of course, I understand." He nodded and smiled. "Which is why I made plans for the four of us, and a couple other important names. There could be a promotion in it for you Dr Graham." Winking happily he sipped on some more of his drink. The word promotion was stuck in his mind. With Nicki and Auburn to take care of now, a promotion would be more than beneficial.

"A promotion?"

"Yes sir. The Cardiology ward is in desperate need of a new clinical lead. Someone young, innovative and willing to take a risk. I suggested your name to the board, you have promising reviews Drake. This dinner will be make it or break it you understand?"

"How do you mean?" He tapped his elbow, motioning for them to take a walk down the corridor and away from the noise.

"Well, all heads of department and their partners will be attending. It always looks good to appear as though your committed to someone, so as not-"

"To appear unruly and free to do as I please?"

"Exactly Dr Graham." They both laughed before Dan continued. "The medical director of Cardiology will be there, he has a seat on the board and ultimately the impression you make on him is crucial. You're the only one with this privilege, take advantage of the props you've been given Drake." He carried on talking as he walked away, leaving Drake stood in awe. This was his chance, with this promotion he could offer Nicki and Auburn the best of the best but just one thing stood in his way. The law. He couldn't possibly turn up with a sixteen-year-old girl on his arm, if anything that could hurt his chances. There was a way around that issue though and right there and then, the consequences were outweighing the good but ultimately this plan could work. Deep in thought he was suddenly brought back to reality when he heard the staff room door open, everyone was leaving. Thankfully Ashley hadn't seen him and kept on walking away.

***

Cutting the engine in the garage he waited for the roller door to come down automatically before hopping out and locking everything up. He was surprised to see his Mom still up as she watched TV with Auburn resting in her arms.

"Where the hell were you?" Her dry and angry tone made him frown confusedly.

"I got paged, I had to go. Why? Did somethin' happen?" He blinked worriedly. "Where's Nicki?"

"Really? Six hours you were gone for! It's almost two in the morning for God's sake!" She was managing to keep her yells to a whisper since Aubbie was finally asleep. "And Nicki's asleep, she's had a really tough night so I think you should just leave her be. She's exhausted."

"Mom, tell me what happened? And don't keep up with the yelling. You of all people know how demanding my job can be! Don't guilt me like that." He watched her eyes as they shut regretfully, followed by a sigh.

"I know, I know. Sorry I didn't mean to shout, but if you could have seen the state she was in earlier." She trailed off and shook her head. "She's really struggling Aubrey, she needs you around to help her. This is what you signed up for remember?" Motioning to the peaceful baby in her arms he folded his lips and sat next to her, holding his hands out to signal that he wanted to hold her. Slowly and carfeully manoeuvring her tiny body into his arms Sandi sat back and watched them.

"I thought she was okay, I mean she seemed fine these last few days."

"I know, I can understand that but it's a lot to take on for a sixteen year old. Especially with all she's been through." She paused for a moment to admire her son and the baby he was taking on as his own. "I think you should talk to her about it tomorrow, I can watch Auburn for a while and take some of the stress off of her."

"Thanks Mom, I don't say this enough but you've been real helpful these last few weeks. We're both more than grateful."

"You don't have to thank me. I'm happy to help." Smiling lovingly at the pair of them she finally felt the courage build up inside her to ask him. "Look, I understand if you say no but I know things are going to be a little hard when I leave. Especially when you go back to work and Nicki wants to focus on school."

"Yeah?" He tried to encourage her to continue. It took a fair few seconds but her question threw him right off.

"So I was thinking maybe you should move back to Canada?"

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*Sorry it isn't too long. I hope this was okayish :// Thanks for reading and to those who commented on the previous chapter!*

14. Falling Into Place

*With a nice reminder from Jessie I've decided to post a chapter on here since it's been a little while :) Hope it's alright. This is probably only a temporary return btw.*

*Starting from where I left off last chapter, which was like a million years ago*

"The hell? It's like 7am." She tried to twist her head and look towards the door as Drake came back through from the kitchen.

"S'all good, I got it." He'd noticed her trying to stand but she relaxed back into the chair hearing him say that. He checked the peephole first before angrily unlocking the door and snatching it open, being sure to step out and close it behind him. It was Jelani.

"The fuck do you want?" The fury was rising within him the longer he stayed silent.

"Look, I jus' wanna speak to Nic."

"And you think I'mma jus' let you in after the shit you pulled yesterday? You fuckin' hit her! Your own sister!"

"I know!" He huffed and stepped back a tad before opening up again. "I know, I was wrong for it. But this is important. Please?" The manner in which he was pleading let Drake see that he did seem kind of remorseful but he was still angry.

"If she wants to speak to you then I'll let you in, but just know I'm not leavin' her alone with you." He inched backwards to the door and let himself back in. "Nic, it's your brother."

"He still there?"

"Yeah. He said he had somethin' important to say, you want me to let him in or-"

"No, let him in. See what he has to say." He folded his lips and pulled the door open, letting a sheepish looking Jelani slide past. He was cautious with his actions as he moved into Nicki's view. She was still holding Auburn to herself with a blanket now draped over her tiny body.

"Nicki-"

"Let me guess, you're really sorry. You didn't mean it and it won't happen again?" Her voice was calm but full of hatred all at the same time as Jelani's face dropped. "Y'know who else says that?"

"Nicki please, I am nothin' like him and you know it." She quickly looked up at his distraught face but decided to keep herself calm since she still had her baby in her arms. Not to mention the fact that her riling him up like that wouldn't help the situation.

"What did you wanna say Jelani?" She was no longer looking at him but at the blanket as if she could see through it. She was hurt that he actually hit her last night but had she not been talking the way she was he wouldn't have done it. Nevertheless he still shouldn't have lay a hand on her, or Drake for that matter. Noticing that he wasn't speaking she looked up again only to see him staring at Drake. "Just say what you wanted to say Jelani, he's not goin' anywhere." The sigh he breathed was one of frustration as he sat back on to the chair behind him.

"I just wanted to make clear to you that my offer still stands. I want you to come back to Arizona-"

"I already told you I'm not goin'."

"Just let me finish." He locked eyes with her before exhaling and continuing on. "But, after last night I can understand if you said no."

"Good."

"I'm not happy 'bout all this though." He flicked his gaze between the two of them as he talked. "You and him. It ain't right, he's way too old for you." Realising that she wasn't paying him any attention he looked back to Drake. "It's wrong. You're a doctor, shouldn't you get fired for like, gettin' a teen pregnant?"

"Auburn isn't his baby." They both looked at her, Drake's focus remained solely on her as he moved to the couch and took a seat.

"Nicki, you don't have to tell him-"

"No, I want to. Well I don't want to but he needs to know." There was silence again before she spoke up quietly. "Could you tell him?" His concentration landed back on Jelani's large frame.

"Of course I can, if that's really what you want?"

"Thank you. I have to go switch which side she's feedin' on anyway so I'll just go." Jelani couldn't exactly hear what they were saying but figured it must have been important when Nicki went back upstairs, leaving him and Drake to talk.

"What's goin' on?"

"There somethin' Nicki thought you should know, but she wanted me to tell you." He took her spot on the couch and breathed out loudly.

"So, what is it?" His patience was running low but he desperately didn't want a repeat of last night, especially after how guilty, low and ashamed he felt afterwards.

"You know a guy called Tyrone?" Drake asked dryly as he watched Jelani's face wrinkle with thought.

"Yeah, he used to come by the house a lot way back. Why?"

"He's Auburn's Father." The look on his face was pure fury and only seemed to get worse as the story got on. He didn't particularly enjoy repeating everything Nicki had told him but it was what she wanted and it was for the best. Understandably Jelani had a million and one questions to ask and the want to speak to his sister about all of this. At first he was hesitant but he figured once this was all talked out then maybe he would leave them alone and go back to Arizona empty-handed.

"So he just got away with it? He's still out there?"

"Well yeah." Drake rubbed the back of his head. "The police weren't involved. If she'd been admitted to hospital one more time I would have had no choice but once she moved in here with me she was fine. Away from the violence, the stress and everythin's been good ever since. Until last night that is." He shot Jelani a cold look once he'd finished speaking. After a long, deep sigh and a moment of silence he finally opened his mouth.

"Look, I think I really owe you an apology. I'm sorry, sounds like you been lookin' out for her. I appreciate that." He gave Drake a nod.

"You don't hafta thank me, I really care about your sister and Auburn. I wouldn't let anythin' happen to them."

"I shoulda guessed that from the way you took a swing at me last night. It's pretty damn obvious how much you care. I'm just playin' the big brother role, y'know?" He shook his head regretfully. "I'm sorry. I was just hung up on the age difference and I'mma be honest, I'm still not happy with that but as long as she's safe then I guess I can't complain right?"

"She's fine here and she knows where you are if she ever wants to leave, I'mma not gon' stop her from seein' you."

"I know, I know." He nodded and for the first time let a small smile appear on his face. "Thanks."

"Woah, what is this? Some sort of parallel universe?" They both turned their heads hearing Nicki talk as she came down the stairs cautiously, Auburn was asleep in her arms.

"Nah, we just sortin' out our differences." She couldn't help but reveal a dimpled smile once she heard Drake say that. Just the fact that he was putting aside his anger to make amends with Jelani. All for her. Her brother's eyes remained on them as he watched carefully. There was no denying it. Even as much as he wanted to he couldn't say there was no affection there because there was. He apologised profusely to the pair of them before Drake felt comfortable enough to leave her alone with him. He understood they had things to discuss that didn't necessarily concern him.

"You want me to go feed her?" He held his hands out as he stood up after hours of sitting.

"Thank you, there's a couple bottles already made up in the fridge." Slowly shifting to the edge of the couch she handed Auburn over to Drake before resuming her position and continuing her conversation with Jelani. He had a plane to catch in four hours and then he'd be out of their hair. Making his way into the kitchen he looked down into his arms, she really was the perfect baby. He laughed lightly at how big her scratch mittens were on her tiny hands as he carefully got her bottle ready and headed back upstairs. He felt terrible that his Mom had been locked in her room all afternoon watching TV so he decided to take Auburn up to see her. With the baby balanced carefully in one arm he held the bottle with the other an knocked the lid on the door skilfully without dropping anything.

"It's open." Taking notice of her cue to go in he entered and headed straight for the wicker chair in the corner of the room. "How's everythin' goin' with them?" Sandi asked with concern as she put some warm socks on. She was layin blissfully against the headboard whilst she watched TV.

"Actually, really well. He said she can stay." He spoke between shifting Auburn in his arms and testing the temperature of her milk on his skin. It was perfect. Sandi knew he was smiling, which only made her smile gleefully too.

"Aubrey that's great, I'm really happy for you y'know? I'm not just sayin' it 'cause I'm your Mom and I have to!" She chuckled and sat herself up to get off of the bed and moved over to where he was sitting.
"She's adorable." Her voice was soft and gentle as she delicately ran her index finger over Auburn's little cheek. She was feeding a lot better after only a few days, which Drake knew to be a promising sign. That and she was accepting both the bottle and Nicki's breast, even though both were breast milk it made all the difference for Drake to be able to get up and feed her through the night if Nicki was too tired.

"Thanks." He smiled as they both continued to watch her.

***

The next two weeks were pretty rocky in terms of coping with Auburn but now that she had a regular routine being reinforced things were looking up a little more with each day. Both Nicki and Drake were super appreciative of Sandi's presence, she was helping out a great deal and truthfully Nicki was petrified for when she had to return back to Canada.

"Hey, I was talkin' to you." He chuckled when she looked up at him. "You good?" He frowned seeing her face troubled with thoughts.

"Yeah, I was just thinkin' 'bout how your Mom would be leavin' soon." She peered down and focused on her hands, he could tell she was scared about being left to care for Auburn without an experienced Mother at hand to help them out when they needed it.

"Nicki, you're a great Mom. Auburn's gonna be fine without her Nana here." He shuffled up to her some more on the couch as she relaxed into his side. She smiled slightly at the word Nana, which Sandi had adopted as her name.

"You're not just sayin' that?"

"No, I'm tellin' the truth. I never lie." He nodded matter of factly causing Nicki to look up at him with an unimpressed face. "What? I don't."

"Okay, says the guy who told me he was a twenty-seven year old named "Drake". You lie all the time Aubrey."

"I do not! Okay, so I lied back then but when have I ever lied recently? Hmm? Come on tell me." He sat back and smiled when she took a while to respond.

"Alright." Pulling away from his arms she turned to face him properly. "The other day, you told me that you'd never been a porn kinda guy, only I happened to find a few-"

"Alright!" He silenced her quickly as she began laughing. "Okay, so I lie about some things, but I'm not lyin' when I say I love you or that you're a great Mom."

"Mm, you better not be." She moved in and kissed him. "I was thinkin' we could take Auburn out today."

"Really? You feel up to it?" He resumed his hold on her as she lay into him again.

"As long as you're there, I'll feel okay."

"Well where d'you wanna take her?"

"Anywhere, we need more food. We could take her with us right?"

"Or I have a better idea."

"What?"

"We could go furniture shopping, we haven't got anythin' for her room yet."

"Really? We can go today?" She moved away quickly and looked up at him. The excitement in her eyes made him smile.

"Sure, go get ready and we'll make a move." He laughed when she squealed and jumped up before kissing him multiple times whilst saying thank you.




She didn't take too long to get ready and returned after showering. Auburn was fast asleep in her arms, all dressed and covered up to keep warm.

"You ready?"

"Yeah, your Mom said she's gonna stay home." She watched his face to see what he was thinking. These last few days her arthritis had been giving her more grief than usual and he was worried about her.

"I thought she would." He folded his lips and cranked the heating up some more before grabbing his keys. "Aight, I'll see you in the car."

"Take your time." She knew he was going up to see his Mother and didn't want to rush him out for her needs.

After fastening Auburn in her seat and triple checking everything Nicki climbed into the passenger seat and waited patiently. She was only sat there for about three more minutes before she saw him closing the front door after he left the house.

"She okay?" There was silence for a second after her shut his car door.

"Yeah, she's fine. I gotta pick some stuff up for her whilst we're out." He turned the key in the ignition. "All buckled up?"

"Yup." Popping the "P" she looked over at him and smiled before they set off.

***

"How can you drive a car, yet you can't even steer a freakin' stroller?" She motioned for him to move and took over pushing Auburn as Drake laughed.

"I see how it is. I guess Onika's happy to walk home. Ain't that right Aubbie?" He peeked in at her as she just looked around randomly. He couldn't believe she was four weeks old already.

"All talk no action, thas what you are." She didn't alter her pace as they walked around looking at paint colours.

"Oh? We'll see about that."

"There you go again. All mouth."

"I'mma pick the most ugly colours if you don't start bein' nice to me." He held his hand on his chest as if he was hurt by her words.

"Are you even lookin'?" She halted and turned to look at him with one hand on her hip and the other on the stroller handle.

"Yeah, look." he grabbed a random tester and held it up innocently. "I was thinkin' maybe this for the window wall and-"

"Stop it." She snatched the card from him and put it back. "Seriously, I want you to show me which ones you like so we can pick together."

"Aight, anythin' I see that I like I should show you?" He carried on following her.

"Yes, unless it's an ugly colour then don't bother."

"I see somethin' I like." His smirk turned into the face of a young boy being told off when she stopped abruptly and he almost walked into the back of her. His eyes were too busy admiring the ass in front of him.

"I can't with you right now." She waved her hand in the air, motioning to the other shelves. "Please, go away and don't come back 'til you got some colours." She couldn't help but smile when he raised his hand to his brow and saluted her whilst stomping his foot.

"Yes ma'am."

"You're such a jerk."




Their search for paint colours went on longer than they had planned since Drake wanted to act silly but eventually they settled on a simple baby pink colour, which they both liked. It was now dark and their shopping had come to an end, most of the items they had managed to pack in the back but some things they had to order in. The car was silent with Nicki dropping to sleep as she looked out of her window and Auburn napping peacefully in her seat. He was counting down the seconds before Nicki opened her mouth about food.

"Yo, I'm starvin'. What are you cooking for me?"

"Oh? I'm cooking for you?" He kept moving his gaze between her and the road.

"You are now. But you don't mind, 'cause you love me." Her face was illuminated by her phone as she browsed through it.

"Damn, you know me too well." He saw her dimples appear but she never looked up at him. "I have a surprise for you though, so we don't need to cook."

"A surprise?" Her head instantly flew up as she stared at the side of his face.

"Mhm, and yes it is gonna stay a surprise. I'm not tellin' you, so don't even bother tryin' to get it outta me." He beamed proudly and pulled into his driveway as she huffed.

They decided to get Auburn inside so Nicki could go ahead and feed her whilst he unloaded all their purchases. For now they'd just have to stay put in the garage.

"I thought I heard you get back." Sandi spoke quietly as she wrapped her cardigan around herself securely.

"Yeah, we were gone longer than I planned. Sorry Ma." He leant forward and kissed her cheek after shutting the front door and removing his jacket.

"Where's Nicki?" She followed him through to the kitchen slowly.

"She's gone upstairs to feed Auburn. You're still okay to babysit tonight? 'Cause I could always change the reservations?"

"No, no, no. You've been planning this for ages, take her out, she deserves it. You both do." Her hand grasped at his arm as she rubbed it soothingly.

"You're a gem, thanks Mom."

"Don't mention it, besides I get to be selfish and have my grandbaby all night without any disturbances."

"Who's selfish?" Her voice came from behind Drake as she strolled in slowly with Auburn held to her chest, covered with her pink blanket as she fed her.

"Oh nobody, I was just sayin' I get to spend some quality time with this little one whilst you two aren't home tonight."

"We're not gonna be home?" Her eyes moved up to Drake's face curiously.

"No, so once you're done feedin' her, slip into somethin' a lil' more dine-worthy and I'll show you your surprise." Winking at her blushing face her kissed her forehead and pulled a chair out for her. "I'mma go take a shower." He smiled at his Mother before disappearing back upstairs.

"I'm really happy he found you y'know?" Taking a seat opposite Nicki she watched her look up sweetly.

"I'm happy he found me too."

...

*Okay, I'm sorry it drags on a bit. There is gonna be some actual storylines coming up...Hopefully! But for now, I'll be seein' ya! Also I'm updating an Onikafaree fic tmrw, probably HIA and WTWC they were most requested. Thanku for all the previous comments ^_^*

Auburn and Drake ^_^

13. Standing Strong

*Here you gooo guys! Hope this is alright! :)) Thanku so much for the comments you left on the last chapter! ^_^*

"You can't do that." Drake's face was dead serious as he stared at the stocky guy before him.

"Nigga, I'll do as I muthafuckin' please! Last time I checked I was the brother here. Shit ain't got nothin' to do with you!" The urge to just blurt out everything was incredibly strong but he knew that would just cause more problems.

"What about Auburn? You can't take her on a plane, she shouldn't even be leavin' the house just yet."

"Fuck, I ain't even think about that." Jelani ran his hand over his stubbly chin as he looked down.

"Don't you think Nic should have a say in this anyway?" Their eyes connected but soon turned to the stairs hearing Nicki speak.

"I should have a say in what?" There was an uncomfortable silence as she moved over to them, looking between their faces. "Can someone please say somethin'?" She was chuckling a little at first but when none of them laughed she turned serious. "Drake?"

"Ask your brother." Standing up swiftly he gave Nicki a remorseful look and stood by her side.

"Lani what's he talkin' about?"

"Look, I was just suggestin-"

"Suggestin'? You told me you had the fuckin' tickets and everythin'!" They continued to argue back and forth until Nicki's voice interrupted them.

"Can one of you please tell me what the hell you're talkin' about?!" Not hesitating to step in Drake spoke up.

"Your brother has plane tickets to Arizona, he wants you to move back with him." Her facial expression only showed mortification as she slowly turned to face Jelani.

"Seriously?"

"Well, yeah I mean since we figured things out I thought it would be best if you were with family, y'know?"

"Lani I'on wanna move to Arizona! We're fine here."

"I don't mind her stayin' with me, this is her home now." There he was again, sticking his nose into other people's business and quite frankly Jelani was sick of it.

"Who the fuck asked you?" He got to his feet quickly and moved closer to Drake with Nicki trying to stand in front of him.

"Jelani stop it!"

"No, I'm done with this guy throwin' his opinion in where it ain't needed or wanted!"

"It is wanted and needed-" She stopped quickly and turned quiet as her brother stared down at her.

"What?"

"I just meant that I-"

"Wait." He took a step back and stared between a silent but deadly looking Drake and his nervous little sister. "There's somethin' goin' on here..." He kept flicking his eyes from her face to his as he pointed at them. "The fuck is this?!"

"I was gonna tell you-"

"Tell me what?! That this nigga's takin' advantage of a sixteen year old girl?!" His nostrils flared with rage and Nicki knew that he'd worked it out already, it was only a matter of time.

Back upstairs Sandi could hear all the commotion and desperately wanted to go down and see what was happening but she didn't want to leave Auburn alone. There was no doubt that she could hear all the noise too and that was affirmed when she started fussing in her arms. Being premature she wasn't feeding properly but Nicki was told to keep at it even if it meant only feeding for five minutes and then have her stop only to want feeding again less than half an hour later. Luckily since she was expressing too there was bottled milk in the fridge and freezer but that still meant having to go downstairs. She just rocked her for a while in hopes that it would calm her but she was still unsettled. Just as she was about lay her back in the moses basket she heard even louder yelling but this time it was coming from Nicki before a series of banging happened which was soon followed by the slamming of the front door. Then it was just silent.



"Here just let me hold it to your face?" Drake let his reddened hands drop to the table as Nicki held the cool cloth to his swollen eyebrow. "I told you to just leave it, I know what he's like."

"Nicki he fuckin' hit you! You expect me to just stand there?!"

"Can you tone it down please? I'm fine, he didn't even get me that hard."

"That's not the point though! And you do know that he has rightful guardianship of you, so he could just drag you out there if he wants?!"

"We'll cross that bridge when we get to it." He looked up at her face and cooled himself a little, her left cheek was a tinge of purply pink already. It wasn't a punch but it was a fairly strong backhand. That guy had issues.

"Let me look at your face." He pulled her hand away and sat her down, she just let him be the doctor as the reality of what just happened sank in. She always knew he'd end up like their Father. She didn't know why though, it was just a feeling she had and unfortunately she was right. "It's just gonna be pretty big bruise. You sure you're okay?" He stared down at her as she nodded. Interrupting their talk Sandi entered quietly with Auburn still in her arms, understandably she gasped as soon as she saw their faces.

"What happened?" She handed the baby to Nicki and she silenced immediately after being placed in her mother's arms. "I knew I shouldn't have let him in!" Sandi could feel herself verging on the tears but Drake quickly stopped her.

"Hey, this ain't your fault ma. Don't blame yourself." He rubbed her arm and turned to look at Nicki but she was too busy watching Auburn as she rocked her.

"You two are okay though?"

"Yeah we're fine, I think we're just gonna call it a night though." He kissed her forehead before they headed upstairs. "See you in the mornin'." She wasn't far behind them as she too went up to her room, they'd all had enough drama for the night.

It was quiet in their room, Nicki had finally got Auburn off to sleep and was just happy to be climbing back into bed. Unbeknownst to her Drake was watching her the whole time, there was something about the way she was with Auburn. Like it all came naturally to her which was odd considering she was merely a sixteen year old girl. Nevertheless she was already showing signs of being a great Mother.

"What are you lookin' at?" The hint of shyness in her voice caught his attention as he stared at her in the dark.

"Just you two, why? Am I not allowed?" She could only just see the outline of his smirk and was taken aback when his hand brushed over the soon-to-be bruise on her cheek. "How's your eyebrow?"

"Fine, how's your cheek?"

"Fine." She mimicked his answer and pulled her hand up to stop his from rubbing on her face. "What's gonna happen if he really does make me go to Arizona?"

"Don't even think about it, I'm not gon' let him take you. He'd have to kill me first."

"But you even said that he has rightful guardianship, so he could." He knew she'd been putting up a front earlier and now she was worrying.

"Don't panic, you're s'posed to be takin' it easy and all you've had is drama after drama. You're not goin' anywhere. Either of you." He kissed her gently to try and diminish her thoughts but it didn't do anything.

"Auburn won't have a Dad."

"Nicki. Stop it." Truthfully the more she talked about it the more he was beginning to freak out. She and Auburn could literally be taken away from him with the click of Jelani's fingers. She lay silently before attempting to talk again.

"I love you." She was still looking at the ceiling as she spoke. Hearing his head move on the pillow she waited for him to speak but he didn't. Her heart felt like it was beating twice as hard, why wasn't he saying it back? Before her mind had chance to answer its own question she felt him nuzzle into her neck as his arm draped over her middle.

"I love you too." He even heard the sigh of relief she breathed and kissed her again to try and wash away any other doubts that were plaguing her mind.

The next morning she was hardly planning on being woken up at 5am but she was. Auburn was crying and Drake was still practically unconscious next to her. She didn't mind though. Slowly rubbing her eyes she yawned and let her legs fall off the side of the bed after she'd pulled the covers back. Quietly moving over to the moses basket she looked down to see her squirming around as she cried out.

"Hey baby." She couldn't help but smile as she reached in and picked her up, she still weighed next to nothing but the doctor said she'd get better with time. She stood and rocked her for a while since the loud volume of her cries wasn't interfering with Drake's sleep. After she'd calmed her a little she headed downstairs and fixed herself some breakfast before wiping her chest area down and getting comfy on the couch ready to feed her. As she sat there simultaneously feeding Auburn and watching TV she noticed that this was the longest she'd ever fed for. "Wow, you were hungry."

"She's not the only one." Hearing his voice she jumped a little in her seat before smiling.

"Well go eat then."

"I'm gonna." He leant down and kissed her over the back of the couch before running the palm of his hand over Auburn's little head. His eyebrow looked and felt pretty tender, as did her slightly purple cheek as he studied it before moving through to the kitchen. It was really bothering him that being hit like that seemed like nothing to her. In fact he'd made a bigger deal than she had. It was sad to think that she was used to being treated so badly, but he was going to change all that.

"Wait, eat it through here." Even though he'd gone at that point he still heard her and took his mediocre breakfast through to the lounge room. Taking a seat next to her he tore the yoghurt lid off and licked it before sitting it next to him. "You can't just have that for breakfast, it's tiny."

"It's all good, it's healthy stuff." He spoke in between eating as she stared at him blankly.

"I'll make you somethin' when she's done bein' greedy."

"It's fine Nic, this is good and..." He paused whilst thinking of the word. "Filling."

"You suck at lyin' Drake, that ain't even real food."

"Neither is that." He used his head to nod at her exposed breast as Auburn was still feeding.

"Y'know what? Make you're own damn food." She shook her head embarrassedly and tried to hide the smile as she pulled her robe more over herself.

"I think I will, you always burn the toast anyway." He laughed and jumped up before she got chance to hit him playfully as she pouted. She could still hear him laughing to himself in the kitchen when her thoughts were interrupted by a knock at the door.

...

Auburn, I know it isn't a great pic but it's the best I could find!

*Hope this was alright :o I'm trying to do all three dricki fics tonight :) I'm prolly gonna be posting tomorrow too! Anyway I'mma go get the other chapters done! Thanku all so much for reading and special thx to the ppl who take the time to leave comments on my fics!! ^_^*

12. A Spanner In The Works - Part Two

*I'm officially free! Finished my first year at university! *sighs* Anywhooo on with the story :)) Thanku for all the comments on the previous chapter, also for Onikafaree readers I'm aiming to get a chapter done for 'Catch Me' too ^_^*

Sitting at the table with this stranger Sandi cleared her throat uncomfortably. He was a fairly big guy to say the least.

"Sorry, what did you say your name was again?"

"Jelani." He smiled tiredly. As soon as he found out where Nicki was staying he got a flight back home to sort out some stuff and came straight back. He was taking his sister home with him.

"And you're Nicki's brother?"

"Yes ma'am." Sandi folded her lips and glanced at the kitchen clock.

"They should be back any minute now." The way her sentence ended on a high note he could tell she wanted to say more.

"They?"

"Yes. Aubrey, my son and your sister..." She let her voice trail off slowly as she thought things over in her head. Nicki had never once mentioned a brother to her and along with that he obviously hadn't shown any interest in keeping contact with her even given her state. The dreaded thought washed over her as she realised he probably didn't know about Auburn, or Aubrey for that matter. She was right. Although Ashley had told him the reasons Nicki was admitted she never spoke of her pregnancy. She knew that leaving him in for such a shock would cause more drama, which is exactly what she wanted.

"They what?"

"Look I-" Hearing a car pull up they both switched their gaze to the bay window in the lounge.

"This them?" With no time to answer Sandi stood quickly to follow him as he went towards living room. He knew it was her as soon as they stepped through the door. Drake entered first with Nicki close behind him and Auburn held to her chest.

"Hey Mom-" He stopped instantly seeing this stranger stood before him. "Who's this?" The level of curiosity in his voice made Nicki look up to see a fuming Jelani. He looked beyond mad. Stuttering on a greeting she looked at Drake sheepishly before her brother's calm yet chilling voice broke the silence.

"Nicki, please tell me that ain't your kid?" It sounded more like he was stating rather than asking. Almost as if him saying that made it somehow true. Feeling Drake's eyes on her she looked back at him before looking at Sandi.

"Could you please take her?"

"Of course, I'll just be upstairs." She smiled comfortingly and took the tiny baby into her arms before ascending the stairs. After watching them disappear Nicki's face turned into complete and utter rage.

"Where the fuck did you disappear to?! You have any idea what you left me to deal with?!" She slapped her arms back down by her side and laughed humourlessly. "Oh wait! Of course you wouldn't 'cause you fucking left me in that dump with him!" Noticing the tears in her eyes, Jelani saw the hurt but Drake could only see anger. He'd never seen her like this before.

"Nicki, please would you calm down?" Drake's soft palm was warm on her forearm as she lifted her hands to her head.

"Well say somethin' then! I know you didn't come here to just fucking stand and say fuck all Jelani! Go on! Say what you gotta say!" She jerked her head back slightly when he turned away from her and sat down on the couch.

"Nic, we need to talk. Like adults. Could you come sit down?" She scoffed and rolled her eyes but catching Drake's expression she dropped her head. Maybe he was right? The air between them did need to be cleared but it wouldn't even need clearing if it wasn't for him bailing on her the way he did a few months ago. Honestly after the last few weeks with Auburn and all the issues surrounding her and her health she was exhausted. Mentally, emotionally and physically. Certainly too tired to start fighting with her brother. Slowly making her way over to the couch opposite him she looked up only to see Drake smiling at her before winking.

"I'll give y'all some space. Be upstairs if you need me."

"Don't go too far, I wanna talk to you." Nicki watched the back of Jelani's head as he rotated to make eye contact with Drake. Within a matter of seconds he was gone, leaving them in silence.

"So? What d'you want Jelani?" She kept her tone dry after seeing the vein in his neck throbbing, she automatically knew he was fighting the anger and if he was anything like their Father then that was a bad thing.

"I been gettin' phonecalls. People worryin' 'bout you and him and I get over there to find you not even livin' with him no more. Why'd you leave?"

"First of all could you drop the attitude? You ain't interrogatin' me." She curled her lip and sat back against the couch. "I was done with havin' to take care of him and shit. So I left."

"And you came here? How'd you know this nigga?"

"He's a friend, said he had a room goin' spare so I asked if I could have it."

"Why were you in the hospital then?"

"It was noth-" She paused dramatically and looked at him. "Who told you I was in the hospital?"

"Just a person I know. She ain't say nothin' 'bouta kid though, so I know it ain't yours. Right?"

"What would you know? You been gone for almost eight months. And she's not an 'It'."

"Why can't I have you just answer my question Nic?! Is. That. Your. Kid?" He slapped the back of his right hand into the palm of his left with each word spoken.

"Yeah." She kept a straight face as he stood up quickly rubbing his hands all over his scalp.

"No, no, no." He was shaking his head in denial before continuing on with his pointless rambling. "No, you just turned sixteen. That can't be right. You lyin'." He kept on shaking his head as he paced.

"I'm not lyin'. I had her two weeks ago. In fact, where you're stood now is where I gave birth to her." She knew what she was doing was cruel. She wanted to escape that house as bad as he did but she would never dream of leaving him if the roles were reversed. In a sickening way she felt like he deserved to feel guilty. The cards had definitely turned with this argument. Or so she thought. She studied his troubled face as he stared down at the floor as if he could see her giving birth right there.

"So, who is he then? Who's her Father?"

"You don't know him."

"Answer the goddamn question Onika!" He leant over to her and slammed his fists on to the coffee table. Her breath was caught in her throat as she inched away from his angry face. Noticing her drawback from him he stood up straight only just realising who he reminded himself of. He sighed before sitting next to her on the couch, taking her small hand in his. "I'm sorry, I just wanna look out for you."

"Well, what would you like? A medal? 'Cause you did a great fucking job Jelani." She wiped away the single tear on her drawn face as she snatched her hand out of his grasp and stood up. "Please? Just go. You sure as hell didn't care back then so what's changed now?" He felt terrible. The known fact that their Father was violent, verbally and physically and he still left her alone with him. What neither of them knew was Drake had overheard the last minute or so of their talking.

"Nicki, can I talk to you for a sec?" She looked back at Jelani before following Drake into the kitchen he didn't hesitate to pull her to him as he hugged her. "You should talk to him Nic."

"Drake he left me alone with that asshole who calls himself a Father and you want me to talk to him?" She was about to walk away but he kept her in his embrace.

"Think about it, who is this helpin'?" The answer was nobody and they both said the same thing in their minds before he asked the next question. "Do you not think Auburn deserves to have her uncle be a part of her life?" Again they both replied with the same answer in their heads. Yes.

"I can't just forgive him though. If he'd stayed then I wouldnt-"

"You wouldn't have Auburn. I know that's a sick way of lookin' at it. Nobody wants to have to go through somethin' like that. But it's true."

"I wouldn't have met you either." She looked up at him, he couldn't help but notice how drained she looked and she was supposed to be taking things easy.

"Exactly. Every cloud has its silver linin'. Now get in there and fix things, you never know what could happen tomorrow." He was clueless as to how accurate his last statement was. She sighed deeply knowing he was right. Her expression was obvious to him whilst he smiled and turned her around before tapping her butt. "Go."

She did as he said and walked back through, her calmness immediately improved the heated atmosphere as she began talking. They both apologised and kept things at a talking level as they discussed everything they needed to and before they knew it he was sat with his baby niece resting in his arms.

"This is gonna take a hell of a long time for me to get used to. I hope you know that Nic?" His voice was quiet and deadly serious as Nicki and Drake shared a worried look. He had no clue about them being together yet and honestly it was only a matter of time before he found out. Interrupting their silence Auburn let out a few grunts which soon enough turned into cries as Nicki scooped her gently out of Jelani's arms.

"I'mma go feed her upstairs. I'll be back down as soon as she's done." She held her protectively against her chest and headed upstairs, leaving Drake and Jelani in silence.

"Thanks, y'know for lettin' her stay with you. Your Mom told me you was a doctor, good to know she had safe place to stay for the time being."

"You don't have to thank me." He smiled before recognising what he just said. "The time being?"

"Yeah, I mean obviously since we patched things up I'm gonna take her back out to Arizona. At least she'll be with some family then."

"But she's fine here, she's no trouble. Plus she's still in school." Drake could feel himself becoming panicky at the thought of losing her.

"No, it's all sorted. I got our plane tickets sorted. We'll leave tomorrow night."

"You can't do that, you can't just pull her away from her life here. That ain't fair." Picking up on his tone Jelani sat forward some more.

"Oh yeah? Try me." He reached into his pockets and pulled out a folded up document. "I'm her legal guardian now. What I say goes. We'll be outta here by tomorrow night."

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*Okay I'm not keen on this chapter...The next one will be better, well I'll try and make it better lol AND I know NOTHING about legal guardianship and all that so ignore any errors. This is a fiction so I can just make up what I want ^_^ Thanks again for all previous comments. I'm gonna post on Set Me Free and Picking Up The Pieces tomorrow :))*

11. A Spanner In The Works - Part One

*Thanku for being patient with me guys :)) I tried to post in between revision but it was too difficult lmao! Please excuse any errors or nonsense sentences! I'm a little fried from my exams and stuff lol only one more and then I'm DONE! My first year at uni will be over! I can't believe it, anyway! Thanks to the ppl who commented on my new fic! I will continue it :)) Anyway hope this is ok ^_^*

Jogging up the three steps to the front door Jelani didn't hold back from knocking. There was no answer. Honestly he didn't really expect one, it was late and his Dad was probably nodding out in the lounge room whilst Nicki had to take care of everything else. He hated that he'd abandoned her but he couldn't cope with all the pent up anger he was constantly experiencing and it would only have been a matter of time before he exploded and that would have caused more damage, so leaving was the last resort and he took it. The night air lingered around him as he knocked again more furiously.

"Aye, come on! Open up." He took a step back and stared up at the top window, expecting Nicki's light to come on. Nothing. Before he got chance to start knocking again the next door neighbour opened up her door briskly, rubbing the sleep from her eyes.

"The fuck is all the goddamn shoutin' 'bout? It's almost midnight!" She stopped for a second and stepped forward some more. "Jelani? Oh my God. Is that really you?" Her angry stance soon turned into a small, sheepish grin.

"Aight Mrs P? It's really me." He gave her a little head nod before placing a hand on the tall metal fence separating their contact. "How they doin'? You seen much of 'em?" The way he tilted his head towards his old house she figured he meant Nicki and Robert.

"Oh, well you're Father' ain't too good. He don't go out much to be real honest and little Nicki? Well I ain't seen her since she went to the hospital that time. How's she holdin' up?"

"What?" The worry was as evident in his voice as his facial expression.

"Y'know?" She wrinkled her already wrinkly brow and tightened her robe around her elderly frame. "She told me she'd called you after she got home. She spent the whole day there and after she got home I saw her on the way in, told me she'd called you."

"Mrs P I haven't spoke to Nic in almost a year, what happened to her? Was it him?" His nostrils flared with rage before she extinguished the growing anger within him.

"No. No, I don't think so. I found her on the ground where you're stood right now, at a guess I woulda said she'd fainted but I called 911 just to be sure. They took away there and then, she seemed fine when she got back though-"

"When'd all this happen?"

"Oh, about three maybe four months ago." She nodded to herself to reaffirm her answer.

"Four months?! And you're tellin' me you ain't seen her since then?!"

"No. Nothin'."

As she filled him in on everything he'd missed he began running through all the places she could be or could have gone. Mentally noting to himself to check the hospitals first, that way he could try and find out when and why she was admitted. He knew all that stuff was confidential but he could only try.

***

Less than fifteen minutes away Nicki lay comfortably on Drake's couch, Sandi had headed to bed almost an hour ago and since then they'd just been lazing in a relaxed manner in his lounge-room. Hovering over her, Drake placed the final kiss on her lips. He'd spent the majority of the evening loving her and kissing on her as she blissfully accepted.

"You wanna head up for the night?" His eyes locked on to hers, she looked tired and worn out from the last two weeks or so.

"Mmm. I wanna stay here with you." He could tell how much effort was needed for her to just sit up and catch his lips with hers, lingering for a moment before the strain pulled her back down.

"I'm goin' with you." He smiled at her her before using the surface of the couch to push himself up and get off the furniture. "Come on." Extending his large hand he helped her up as she stretched and went straight to the stairs. "I'mma go clean up in there, I'll be up soon."

"Mkay, don't be long." She held on to the banister and swayed as she yawned before continuing upstairs to go shower and get ready for bed.

He was true to his word and entered her room just as she was about to climb in the shower. He remembered last time he'd accidentally walked in, she had a weird episode which still hadn't been explained. Suddenly feeling his presence she looked across the bathroom and through the doorway at him.

"It's aight Nic. Take your time, I'll just shower when you're done." Plopping on the edge of the bed he started peeling his shirt off. He flinched immediately after he removed the clothing as he was greeted with a stark naked Nicki stood before him. Trying to avert his eyes politely she moved forward and gently grabbed his face, turning it back towards herself.

"Or...You could just, shower with me?" Her voice was shy and timid as she waited for his response. He didn't need to verbalise his answer as he stood and pulled her close to him. Feeling her body for the first time. Obviously he'd felt her body before but not like this, not really felt her. Aware that she'd only given birth two weeks ago he didn't let his hands wander in that direction. Instead he focused his attention on her front, running his hands up and down on her skin from her neck to her collar-bone and gradually got further down as he kissed her slowly and meaningfully whilst she let her own hands explore his sculpted frame. He eased up on the firm feeling when he reached her chest, noting that she was probably sore. Guiding his fingers down from her boobs he let them trail over her stretch-mark free abdomen and down her sides before going to the small of her back and sliding down to rest on her ass. Pulling away from the kiss he paid attention to every inch of her body as she stood still, watching him as he watched his hands. His face was in complete awe of her anatomy, he was enchanted but was soon brought back to reality when he heard her stifled breath hit the air. Her eyes were now slanted, half shut and her soft lips parted as she enjoyed the feeling he was giving her at that moment.

"The water'll be gettin' cold." He was less than a millimetre away from her ear as he whispered lightly sending a chill down her spine. Gently pulling away he took her hand and guided her into the light of the bathroom before undressing himself fully and climbing in with her. They washed one another before exiting and threw on some light clothing and settling in bed together. The silence was comforting as they lay close to one another. He could feel her watching him and turned to look at her.

"Drake?"

"Mm."

"Can I ask you somethin'?" There was a hint of hesitation in her voice as she played with a loose thread on the duvet.

"Sure, what is it?" Giving her his undivided attention her rolled on to his side to look her in the eye. She carried on being silent for a few seconds as she tried to piece together what she wanted to say.

"Y'know us?"

"Well, I hope so!" He smiled with a slight chuckle as she let her dimples appear briefly before regaining her serious expression.

"No but really now, I wanted to ask you somethin' important." She licked her lips and continued. "I would really like for Auburn to grow up with two parents, y'know? Not just me and I know you'll always be there but I'm askin' you if you'll be there as her Father?" She got more and more quiet as her sentence progressed. He could sense she was worried about his response but honestly he had never felt happier. He wanted nothing more than to be an actual family and was more than pleased to take on that role.

"I would love that." A simple and honest statement which he gladly sealed with a kiss. He felt her sigh into the loving gesture. After pulling away there was silence for the longest time before she broke it again.

"There's somethin' else too." There was more nerves layering her words this time causing him to become instantly concerned. Without a word he looked at her as best he could in the dim light. "It's 'bout Auburn's real Dad." His brow furrowed seeing her lip quiver. She was fighting her own emotions as she spoke.

"S'ok Nic, if you're not ready to explain-"

"No, no I want to. I need to." Not making another sound he held her hand supportively, readying himself for what she was about to say. Nothing could have prepared him for it though. The sudden urge of hatred he felt run through his entire being was the most intense feeling he'd ever experienced. If he was to ever run into this Tyrone he'd surely kill him. Without a doubt. He realised now how difficult it must have been for her to reveal herself like she had earlier. He held her for the duration of the night, right up until the morning sun peeked through her curtains and slowly awoke them.

***

Slamming her locker door Ashley huffed in frustration at the news she'd just been informed of. Drake had taken a sabbatical, in effect as of today. She was more than irritated. It meant having to deal with a stand in replacement for more than two months and the reason for his leave was known to her. It was that little bitch and her baby. A friend of hers let her know about the birth since she worked in that hospital. In fact on the very ward that Auburn was on. Everyone was avoiding her as they could see her obviously sat stewing about something. Seeing a particularly riled looking man enter through the automatic doors she watched him attentively as he moved closer to her.

"Can I help you sir?"

"Yeah, I'm lookin' for my baby sister. She was in here a while back, so I was told."

"I'm sorry I can't-"

"Please? Her name's Onika. Onika Maraj. I just wanna know she's ok!" He slammed his fist forcefully on to the counter surface as she flinched a little. That is until she recognised the name. Smiling slightly deviously to herself she looked around to make sure nobody was watching before pulling out a drawer on the filing cabinet. It took a mere few seconds to flick through the files, landing on Nicki's she pulled it out and skimmed through it. Telling him everything. Including her new place of residence on condition that he never revealed who told him, to which he willingly agreed. That was sure to cause a bit of trouble or at least she hoped it would. It would never last anyway, she was just speeding up the inevitable.

*** Two Days Later ***

Holding her finger out she smiled wide as Auburn gripped on with her own little hand. She was safely nestled in Drake's arms as he looked down at her lovingly. There was something about seeing her in his arms that made Nicki feel warm inside. She blinked slowly, taking in the sight before her. He couldn't explain the feeling in any form of words but whenever he had hold of her he felt a strong sense of protectiveness come over him. Not just over Auburn, but Nicki too. Bringing his head up he locked eyes with her, she looked smitten which in turn made him feel even more a part of their lives. Another piece of miraculous news had been given the previous morning. Auburn had shown signs of attempting to breathe unaided, which with their permission of course, was acted upon. They removed the tube and admittedly that had been a huge risk but ultimately worth it when she continued to fill her own lungs without assistance. With hospital staff monitoring her for one more day she was allowed to go home with them once a doctor did the last final check. They were waiting on him both anxiously and patiently.

"You excited?" She could tell he was, it was written all over his face and readable in his eyes as they scanned her features.

"I can't wait to get her outta here. I'm scared though."

"I know, so am I. But she'll be fine, she's got both of us and my Mom." He grabbed her hand with his own and squeezed reassuringly. They were finally taking their baby home.

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*Sorry it's a wee bit short :/ I'm taking tomorrow off from revision too so I'll try and get a part 2 done ^_^ But now I gotta go do some Onikafaree :))))) Hope this was ok! OH and I'm gonna do Set Me Free at some point too lol and my new Dricki fic ^_^*

10. Early Days (Full Chapter)

*Exam completed! Now I'm back sooo here's the full chapter, THANKU so much for the comments guys ^__^*

It was almost 6am and Drake was still sat watching Nicki sleep. The ambulance had taken them to a different hospital to facilitate the baby's needs, the NICU at this hospital was a lot more efficient than the one where Drake worked. He was glad Nicki was sleeping through the ordeal of trying to get the baby breathing again, the whole time he felt as though his heart was in his throat but they managed to bring her back. Hearing someone else enter the room he turned around to see his Mother walking towards him with two coffees.

"Thought you might need this?" She handed it to him as he never once took his eyes off of a completely worn out Nicki as she slept heavily.

"Thanks."

"How are they both?" She took a seat next to him.

"The first few days are gon' be touch 'n go with the baby but she's ok for now, Nicki's fine. Just exhausted."

"You did really good Aubrey." She shifted slightly and he could tell there was something else she wanted to say so he waited for her to spit it out. "I just want you to know I'm sorry for having doubted your relationship. I've never seen you like this with any of your other girlfriends, it's really nice to see you happy." She gently rubbed his forearm as he turned to face her.

"Thanks Mom, that means a lot. I am happy. Be even happier once I can have them both home with me."

"How long do they have to stay here?"

"Well, Nicki can be discharged in a couple days but the baby's gonna be here for a while." Looking down he swirled the coffee in his cup as he thought.

"Roughly how long is a while?"

"Usually it's until their due date which would mean around six to eight weeks." He heard her exhale sadly.

"Well, for what it's worth I'm gonna help out as much as I can, y'know? With Nicki and the baby. I know it isn't easy and I not havin' her own Mother around won't help much." He looked back at her gratefully and was about to speak when they heard bed sheets ruffling. Nicki was awake.

"I'll give you two some space." She smiled at them both before leaving, shutting the door behind her. They'd managed to get her in a private room to let her have some privacy. She looked drained, understandably as she tried to sit herself up.

"Here." Jumping up he let her use his arm as a lever to sit up as he re-adjusted her pillows. "How you feelin'?" He pulled the chair closer to her bed and sat down again.

"Tired." Suddenly remembering what had happened she looked around the room frantically before his soothing voice stopped her.

"She's in the NICU, and she's fine." He saw her body relax back into the pillows slowly. "You wanna go see her?"

"Can I?"

"Of course you can, you're her Mom." She half smiled, revealing one of her dimples before he helped her out of the bed extremely slowly, still aware that she was probably tender.

She held on tightly to his hand as he led her down the hall, not caring if people saw. She had an excuse, it hurt like a bitch to walk unaided. They made their way there slowly for Nicki's sake before he keyed the code into the wall pad and they both sanitised their hands before entering. It was eerily quiet to Nicki as she remained holding on to Drake's hand, walking closely behind him.

"Here she is, baby Maraj." Tugging her hand he encouraged her to come to his side so she could see better but she was glued to the spot. "Nicki what's wrong?"

"She's so small, are you sure she's okay?" He could see the tears welling up in her eyes before he pulled her gently to him.

"I promise, she's fine. Havin' you here with her will help her to stay healthy. Come on." He pulled away and wiped her tears whilst leading her over to where her baby was.

"What's wrong with her eyes?" She was still holding on to him and slightly behind him at the same time, her voice was quiet and shaky as she looked over her tiny body. She had tubes and wires all over and two cotton patches covering her eyes, secured by the little hat she had on.

"Nothin's wrong with her eyes, they're just a lil' sensitive to the light 'cause she was so early." He was glad that nobody else was in the room with them so he could talk to her comfortably and tell her everything she wanted to know. Although he'd wiped away her tears they were still rolling down her face, she didn't look like she was crying though. They were just kind of trickling out continuously as she kept her eyes fixed on the baby.

"Can we go now?" His heart felt like it had dropped into his stomach as he watched her quickly smudge her tears away and turn to walk out again.

"Woah, wait. Don't you wanna hold her?"

"No. I might hurt her."

"Nicki, you won't hurt her. Here, you can sit down and I'll pass her to you, is that better?" He rushed to grab a chair as she just watched him. "There, you sit on this and I'll get her out." She apprehensively did as she was told whilst he re-arranged the wires and tubes so they wouldn't get in the way. She looked even smaller in his arms. "Open your gown a lil' bit, you have to have a lot of skin-to-skin contact with her 'cause she's so young." She could feel her tears as each and every one of them dropped off of her face and onto the bit of skin showing on her chest. Weirdly, as soon as he placed the baby in her arms she relaxed almost immediately. Moving around the chair Drake stood to the side and just behind as he watched over them both, kissing Nicki on her head as she and her baby bonded.

"What are all of these for?" He looked away from the baby as she let her eyes wander over all the tubes and wires.

"Well, this one here is feedin' her and that one is helpin' her breathe." He smiled comfortingly but her face remained troubled.

"You mean, she can't do any of it by herself?"

"No it's not that she can't but she just needs a lil' help Nic." He brushed the hair away from her face gently. "She's a premature baby, just give her time. You'll see, she'll be fine." Kissing the side of her head he stood back up straight hearing the door click open. It was a woman in a nurses uniform, she was scrubbing her hands together after sanitising.

"Oh, I was just comin' to see how she was doin'. I didn't know you were in here." She smiled over them before explaining everything about the baby's health and what was going to be happening over the next few weeks. They really couldn't determine when they'd be able to take her home, it depended on how she responded to treatment and whether any complications cropped up. Since she was only a few hours old they were monitoring her closely, the first few days were going to be crucial. Nicki couldn't help but feel so grateful as she looked over at Drake, he was listening intently to everything the nurse was saying. Like he was absorbing all the information, like this baby was actually his daughter. Of course she wasn't though.

It had been two weeks and Nicki was visiting the hospital everyday without fail, Drake felt awful that he couldn't make it sometimes but he'd applied for his annual sabbatical so that when Auburn was finally able to come home he'd be able to spend that time with Nicki and her. He smiled thinking about the name choice. She'd completely surprised him with it and he was truly honoured that she'd chosen a name so similar to his. He squeezed her hand as they entered the hospital, today was the day they were going to be told whether Auburn could have her feeding tube removed. Understandably Nicki was anxious but there really was no reason for it. Auburn had been progressing miraculously over the last fortnight.

"It'll be fine." Although he'd had to let go of her hand he was still there for her as they waited for the elevator.

"I know it's just after this we're one step closer to gettin' her outta this place. Then it's just us. No nurses or other people helping."

"Well we've got my Mom for a while, she said she's gon' help out a lot, so stop stressin'." She smiled before they both stepped into the elevator and continued up to the NICU. Rachel, Auburn's primary care-giving nurse was already with her.

"I was wonderin' where y'all were! Take a look at this." She followed them with her eyes as they got closer, both were watching Auburn. "It's out, that was her last feed usin' the tube."

"Seriously?"

"Mhm." She nodded happily.

"So, no more feedin' tube?" He felt like he had to ask just to be doubly sure.

"No sir." Both Rachel and Drake looked at her little body, which was now secured against Nicki's chest as she held her. "That means you can stop usin' that awful breast-pump now and feed her yourself if you want. You can carry on expressin' though and bottle feed too if you don't wanna feed her directly yourself."

"Ugh good, I hate that thing." There was a mixture of relief and happiness in her voice as she looked at Auburn's tiny face. She'd had those patches taken off of her eyes too. The only thing left was the oxygen tubes.

"She's doin' really well, as soon as the oxygen tubes are out then I don't see any reason why she can't go home. Of course I'll have to talk that through with a doctor first and everythin'."

"Thank you so much."

"Not a problem, I'll come back a bit later to check her over." She gave them both a smile and stroked Auburns little head and left.

"Can you believe this?" Just by the way he said it she knew he was smiling. Instead of answering she turned around and kissed him. Nobody was looking, they were safe. They stayed for a few hours with Rachel returning momentarily to help Nicki feed her for the first time. It took a while partly because of the whole experience being new to both of them and the fact that Auburn had never actually had any of her feeds pass through her mouth but through the tube instead. Eventually they got the hang of it but at first Nicki was overwhelmed by it all, the only thing making her feel ok was knowing that Drake was by her side the whole time.

Leaving was always the worst and the first few times she cried but it was slowly becoming more routine and as Auburn grew stronger they didn't find themselves sat waiting for the dreaded phone-call.

"Do you think she'll be okay Drake?" The car had been silent up until she opened her mouth. He took his eyes of the road for a split second to look at her. She was just staring out of the window.

"Yes, I do. You even heard Rachel say so. She's doin' so good Nicki and she'll be home in no time."

"No, that's what I mean. When we take her..." She took a few seconds to say the rest of her sentence but she spoke it slowly. "Home." She'd never called his house home before but she was positive that as soon as Auburn was with them it would feel more like a home rather than a house.

"Of course. I'm gon' be there to help and I'll even do the whole gettin' up in the middle of the night stuff." He smiled, showing his teeth before resting his hand on her leg. There were no words to describe how she felt about him and the same went for how he felt about her. She rested her hand over his for the rest of the ride home before they pulled into his driveway. They entered the house quietly only to be greeted with the smell of food, their stomachs growled simultaneously.

"Ugh, I love your Mom's cooking." Pulling her coat off she hung it on the rack and went through to the kitchen. Sandi had been so great with Nicki and Auburn, often going with her to the hospital whenever Drake couldn't go and he'd really noticed how well they got along.

"Aubrey."

"Yeah I'm comin' Ma. I'm just gon' go shower up first." He stood waiting for an answer but only heard the oven door open again as she put his plate back in to keep warm.

"So how's the little one doing?" Sandi sat her fork down as she chewed politely on some broccoli.

"Really well, she had her tube taken out today."

"Oh that's wonderful news! Now it's just the oxygen tubes left?"

"Yeah. Hopefully the aren't in for much longer either." She returned a smile back to Sandi genuinely. She felt so privileged that her own daughter was going to grow up with a loving family around her. Not like her own childhood. She understood that everything she was going through wasn't the average for a sixteen year old and obviously things were going to be difficult, but she really had never been happier than she was at that moment. But nothing compared to how she felt when she overheard Sandi refer to Auburn as her grandbaby, she felt as though she was smiling for days.

They continued to make small talk as Drake cleaned up and got himself dressed again. It was already eight in the evening and as always he'd had a stressful day at work but as soon as he saw Nicki he felt all the tension wash away. He'd been more on edge after seeing Ashley conversing with some higher staff members, not to mention the fact that she found out that Nicki had given birth already. How she discovered that, he had no idea. Jogging down the last few steps he entered the kitchen cheerfully, he didn't want for Nicki to be burdened with any other worries.

"What, how are y'all finished already?" He laughed seeing Nicki's jaw drop but leaned down to kiss her on the way past. That was something Sandi was still getting used to but she was being respectful of their relationship and never said an ill word about it.

"Aubrey take your plate through there, we wanna sit on somethin' comfy." Sandi ordered pleasantly before grabbing her wine glass and moving through to sit down. Nicki just watched him as he sprinkled more pepper over his food before she spoke up softly.

"You okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine, just glad to be home after today." Suddenly feeling her tiny arms wrap around his torso from behind he relaxed into her hold before pulling her hands away and turning to face her whilst putting her arms back around him. She stayed limp as he moved her arms for her.

"Rough day?"

"Rough is an understatement, I felt like I had freakin' patient notes and files fallin' outta my damn ears."

"Well, they are big enough." She started laughing before she'd even finished talking.

"Ouch, that hurt Onika!" He playfully held his hand to his chest as she continued to cackle.

"Aw, I'm sorry baby. I didn't mean it." She bit on her bottom lip as she looked up at him. They were now pressed against each other with their arms wrapped around the other's body.

"Only I'm allowed to bite on them." He freed his hand and gently tugged her lip from her teeth before they were interrupted by Sandi clearing her throat. Immediately pulling apart Nicki felt her face starting to burn as she grabbed her plate from the table and began to wash it.

"Hope I wasn't interrupting anything." She knew she was but she'd finished her wine waiting on them.

"No, no 'course not. We're abouta come through now." He picked up his plate and grabbed a knife and fork out of the draw as Sandi re-filled her wine glass and disappeared again. She heard them giggling as she sat back down and couldn't help but smile. They were both so happy.

***

Shutting the car door Jelani squinted up at the house. It looked exactly the same as when he'd left. A complete dump, only now a few of the windows were missing glass and instead had cork-board replacing it. He'd been getting a number of calls from their next door neighbours, they were worried about Robert. His Father wasn't the reason he was visiting though. The only person he needed to know was safe was Nicki.

*Sorry if it's a lil' short! I finished the worst exam but now I have to study for Psychology :o I'm posting on some Onikafaree fics later though ^_^ Hope this was ok and thanku so much for all the comments on the sneak peek!! Oh and as you now know*